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????????????????♀️ Where’s my crystal ball? ????????????????♀️
Prepare yourself. I’m going to tell you the most pitiful story…ever.
When I was in 5th grade I LOVED New Kids on the Block. I, like every other young girl, was obsessed. I begged my parents to let me go to their concert and *finally* they gave in. It was the morning tickets went on sale and got up early so I could start the very long process of calling Ticketmaster and hitting redial until I could get through (this was old school, before the days of internet). After three hours of redialing…I got through! I shouted at my mom to come to the phone so she could order the tickets. As I paced nervously around the kitchen I heard her say “Oh, you only have lawn seats available? We’re going to have to think about that.” And she hung up the phone.
I. Was. Heartbroken. I knew I wouldn’t be seeing NKOTB. Ever. I had missed my opportunity.
The night of the concert was very hard for my 11 year old self. I sat in my room and listened to their tapes. I flipped through magazines and looked at concert pictures. I pretended like I was at the show. It was seriously the most pitiful thing you can imagine. My dreams were crushed.
And then, 15 years later NKOTB started their reunion tour! Finally! My dreams could come true! I went to more shows than I can count. I splurged and got first row seats. I went on a cruise. And I met them. Yes. I met my boyband idols. Often times I would find myself saying “I wish I could go back and tell my 5th grade self not to be sad. Because one day, she was going to get something so much better than lawn seats.
I’ve got a lot of transition going on right now. An impending move, new WW product, navigating a complicated relationship, and working on myself…to overcome some of my own personal blocks.
ALL of these things involve facing the unknown. And I’ve said, at least six times, I wish I had a crystal ball and I knew what the future held.
But you know what? I don’t have a crystal ball. I have zero ways of predicting the future. And this is a really hard thing to accept sometimes. Just like I can’t go back at tell my fifth grade self that one day her dreams will come true ???? I won’t be able to time travel and tell my 40 year old self the end result was to all my transition.
However, the comfort I can take, is no matter what, all will be well. And everything will work out at it should. Life always works out as it should. It might be hard. And it might be scary. But in the end all will be ok. And if it’s not ok, it’s not end of the story.
So, for all those who wish they had a crystal ball, that’s not a thing. Focus on what you can control. Focus on the right now. Focus on choosing you. Focus on believing in your selfie…because if you don’t, who will!